Rejection

Dear Feeling Rejected, 

Today I was mad at the world. Today I was annoyed and frustrated over things I couldn't change or control in my life. Today I let unforgiving, bitter thoughts towards others and God creep in, swirl around, and take root in my mind and heart. I don't know if any of that resonates with anyone but for me that's what it was like today. I have had issues with some of my closest friends and family lately and I feel hurt and rejected by some of them. I am angry and frustrated over things they have done and the fact that I feel like they just haven't been there for me when I needed them the most. I know that none of this has to do with men and I have decided not to include them here (I can write a whole other post about rejection from them). I feel that especially when you're single, the most important people in your life are your friends and family. They are the ones you count on and are supposed to be able to turn to. And when you feel rejected by them, it hurts like nothing else. You feel truly alone and like no one cares. 

I feel like God has been using my circumstances and things that have happened in my life recently to show that He is the only one who won't reject me. Throughout the past two years, God has taken people and things out of my life. He has done it for many reasons, probably some I don't even know about, but one I do know. So that I will only seek fulfillment from Him. So that when I am hurting and feeling rejected, I will run only to Him, and no one else. I know the pain of being rejected by a loved one. I had a family member, someone who was like a sister to me, completely turn her back on me and reject me because I made a mistake. She was someone I trusted completely and never thought for one second would do that to me. But she did. And ever since then, I've realized there is no one I can count on. God is the only one who promises to never leave me or forsake me. And He is the only one who can keep that promise. 

At my church, I have been going through the study called "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore. It's amazing and I would recommend it to every woman, no matter what phase in life you are in or what you are going through. God has used it to reveal many things to me in my heart and life. I know it's no coincidence that the part in the study that I am in this week is about God's unfailing love. It's all about trusting and resting in His love and letting that fill us up because nothing and no one else can. Every single person desires unfailing love-love we can count on that will never stop no matter what happens. Praise the Lord we have that in Him. I'm so grateful that I still have God when I feel like everyone else in my life is not there for me or has rejected me. God loves us and He cares about everything that hurts us. He cries with us when we cry. He listens when we vent. He waits patiently for us while we go to everything and everyone else when we are hurting. He never resents us for it but instead awaits with open arms for us to come to Him. I am deeply grateful that His love never fails. 
Please feel free to leave any comments or prayer requests. Or if you just want someone to talk to, email me csbucket@gmail.com. I would love to hear from and learn from anyone who might be reading this. 

Isaiah 54:10 NIV "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed, says the Lord who has compassion on you."