Dear Feeling Stuck,
I think most of us feel stuck in one way or another at some point in our lives. Whether it's stuck at a job, in a relationship, in our spiritual walk, or just in general, it's hard to know what to do when you feel stuck.
I've felt stuck in my life circumstances for the past couple of months. I have wondered whether or not to leave my job and find something new. I've felt stuck with finances and not being able to move. I've also felt stuck spiritually. I've felt like God has been silent lately and has not answered my questions about what to do next in my life. There are a lot of unknowns in my life right now and those unknowns have filled me with overwhelming anxiety. My anxiety has caused me to question whether I've made the right decisions or followed the right path or let my apathy or fear hold me back...And the list goes on and on. But the biggest question I have that keeps me up at night is, "Am I wasting my life?"
One of my biggest fears is that one day I will look back on my life and realized I've wasted it. I think that fear is what causes most of my anxiety about what decisions to make and what I should do with my life. I don't want to make the wrong decision and end up down the wrong path and waste away years of, if not my entire, life. But the thing is, I shouldn't be worrying about this. I feel like God has been trying to show me this. Last week at church, one of the staff members came up to the front and said, "Our prayer team has the sense that there are some people here who feel stuck." As soon as he said that and then asked those of us to come forward and receive prayer, I knew that God was speaking directly to me. So I went forward and received prayer. There's something about having a stranger pray for you that's completely humbling and also an incredible blessing. I got emotional and started crying in the middle of it. But then that night I went home with the biggest sense of peace I have felt in a long time. In fact, I have continued to feel that peace since then.
Scripture says that if we trust in God, He will direct our paths and make them straight. It's not up to us to plan out our whole lives or even what the next step in our life is. I know I want it to be up to Him. He knows way better than we do what's best for us and He can see the whole picture, while we can only see a tiny speck. We have to trust that even though we may not be getting answers right now, we will eventually. Or maybe God has a reason for us to be "stuck" right where we are.
Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight."
