I recently read a post on a site called HelloGiggles that inspired this post. If you haven't checked out hellogiggles.com, you really need to! It's a site filled with fun and cute blogs/posts and things like items of the day. The writers and posts all make me laugh. And one of its founders is Zooey Deschanel. Anyways, in one of the posts I read, one of the writers talked about songs that seemed to be written about her. You know, those songs where the second you hear them, you think "This song is so about me!" They talk about exactly what you're going through or how you feel etc. I decided to come up with my own list of ten songs that I feel could have been written about me either now or some point in my life. I've included some lyrics from each song that stand out to me or mean the most.
"Where Are You Now?" by Michelle Branch
Michelle Branch was one of my favorite singers all throughout high school. It's sad that she hasn't really done solo stuff recently. Her songs are easy to relate to and I love so many of her lyrics. But "Where Are You Now?" could seriously have been written by me, for me, and about me. It's one of the few songs where I can say literally every word is how I feel about finding someone and waiting for the right person to come along.
"Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Or do I have to wait forever?"
"Show Me What I'm Looking For" by Carolina Liar
This song came out at the exact point in my life where I was totally lost and had no idea what to do. It was basically a quarter life crisis. I had graduated college, had no job, and no idea what to do with my life. I was constantly praying for God to show me what to do and where to go.
"Save me, I'm lost
Oh Lord I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for"
"Kiss Off" by Violent Femmes
I like to call this my angry anthem. Whenever I'm really upset or hurt about something I sing along to this song at the top of my lungs. It's fun to sing it too when I'm not upset.
"I take one, one, one 'cause you left me
Two, two, two for my family
And three, three, three for my heartache"
"I'm Not That Girl" from the musical Wicked
Wicked is one of my favorite musicals and the first time I heard this song, I related to it so much. I know what it's like to be that girl that isn't chosen by the guy she likes. I know how hurtful it is sometimes to hope that you are that girl. This song is just so raw and real, I love it.
"Every so often we long to steal
To the land of what might have been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in"
"Stop and Stare" by One Republic
This song applies to so much of my life. There have been many times where I've been frustrated about where I was in life. Sometimes I just feel like I'm not going anywhere or moving forward and just watching everyone else move on. The lyrics explain this so much better than I can.
"Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need"
"Snuff" by Slipknot
I'm not really a big Slipknot fan (no offense to anyone who is). But I'm a huge fan of this song. The first time I heard it I was so impressed. I love emotional, angst-filled music and this is exactly what this song is. It's about love and the pain of a boyfriend/girlfriend leaving. I don't relate it specifically to that so not every lyric applies. I relate it to how I felt when someone close to me betrayed me. But, I think the overall tone of the song can relate to any pain or loss. Listen to it.
"So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away, you're all the same"
"Stop This Train" by John Mayer
This song is about getting older and life changes. The lyrics talk about how he just wants to stop and stay young. I so understand that. The older I get, the more I realize how hard life can be. I'm also not a big fan of change and wish that sometimes I could just freeze time and make things stay the way they are.
"See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'till you cry when you're driving home in the dark"
"Dig" by Incubus
Incubus has been around for quite a while and I love their music. This song is about our weaknesses and how certain things just "dig" at us. The lyrics talk about how they want someone to pull them up when their weakness gets the best of them. I want all my loved ones to do this.
"If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me"
"Somebody to Love" by Queen
This song is pretty self explanatory. It's exactly how I feel, especially when I'm really lonely. The Glee cast version of it is also really good.
"I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord-somebody somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?"
"Nobody's Listening" by Linkin Park
I knew I wanted to include a Linkin Park song on this list and I had a hard time choosing just one. Linkin Park is amazing. Not only is their musicality good, but their lyrics are genius! Seriously, I can't think of many other artists/bands that consistently write such real and easy to relate to music. Even if you're not a fan of their type of music, just listen to the words. They talk about pain, insecurity, doubt, anger, fear etc. Things that we all experience. I like their recent singles but their older stuff is what I love the most. Songs like "Crawling" and "Somewhere I Belong" could easily also be on this list. But I chose this one because the lyrics below encompass perfectly what I have felt so many times. Anyways, I could go on and on about them so I'll stop now.
"I got
A heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Handful of anger held in my chest
Uphill struggle
Blood, sweat, and tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear"
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
Rejection
Dear Feeling Rejected,
Today I was mad at the world. Today I was annoyed and frustrated over things I couldn't change or control in my life. Today I let unforgiving, bitter thoughts towards others and God creep in, swirl around, and take root in my mind and heart. I don't know if any of that resonates with anyone but for me that's what it was like today. I have had issues with some of my closest friends and family lately and I feel hurt and rejected by some of them. I am angry and frustrated over things they have done and the fact that I feel like they just haven't been there for me when I needed them the most. I know that none of this has to do with men and I have decided not to include them here (I can write a whole other post about rejection from them). I feel that especially when you're single, the most important people in your life are your friends and family. They are the ones you count on and are supposed to be able to turn to. And when you feel rejected by them, it hurts like nothing else. You feel truly alone and like no one cares.
I feel like God has been using my circumstances and things that have happened in my life recently to show that He is the only one who won't reject me. Throughout the past two years, God has taken people and things out of my life. He has done it for many reasons, probably some I don't even know about, but one I do know. So that I will only seek fulfillment from Him. So that when I am hurting and feeling rejected, I will run only to Him, and no one else. I know the pain of being rejected by a loved one. I had a family member, someone who was like a sister to me, completely turn her back on me and reject me because I made a mistake. She was someone I trusted completely and never thought for one second would do that to me. But she did. And ever since then, I've realized there is no one I can count on. God is the only one who promises to never leave me or forsake me. And He is the only one who can keep that promise.
At my church, I have been going through the study called "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore. It's amazing and I would recommend it to every woman, no matter what phase in life you are in or what you are going through. God has used it to reveal many things to me in my heart and life. I know it's no coincidence that the part in the study that I am in this week is about God's unfailing love. It's all about trusting and resting in His love and letting that fill us up because nothing and no one else can. Every single person desires unfailing love-love we can count on that will never stop no matter what happens. Praise the Lord we have that in Him. I'm so grateful that I still have God when I feel like everyone else in my life is not there for me or has rejected me. God loves us and He cares about everything that hurts us. He cries with us when we cry. He listens when we vent. He waits patiently for us while we go to everything and everyone else when we are hurting. He never resents us for it but instead awaits with open arms for us to come to Him. I am deeply grateful that His love never fails.
Please feel free to leave any comments or prayer requests. Or if you just want someone to talk to, email me csbucket@gmail.com. I would love to hear from and learn from anyone who might be reading this.
Isaiah 54:10 NIV "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed, says the Lord who has compassion on you."
Today I was mad at the world. Today I was annoyed and frustrated over things I couldn't change or control in my life. Today I let unforgiving, bitter thoughts towards others and God creep in, swirl around, and take root in my mind and heart. I don't know if any of that resonates with anyone but for me that's what it was like today. I have had issues with some of my closest friends and family lately and I feel hurt and rejected by some of them. I am angry and frustrated over things they have done and the fact that I feel like they just haven't been there for me when I needed them the most. I know that none of this has to do with men and I have decided not to include them here (I can write a whole other post about rejection from them). I feel that especially when you're single, the most important people in your life are your friends and family. They are the ones you count on and are supposed to be able to turn to. And when you feel rejected by them, it hurts like nothing else. You feel truly alone and like no one cares.
I feel like God has been using my circumstances and things that have happened in my life recently to show that He is the only one who won't reject me. Throughout the past two years, God has taken people and things out of my life. He has done it for many reasons, probably some I don't even know about, but one I do know. So that I will only seek fulfillment from Him. So that when I am hurting and feeling rejected, I will run only to Him, and no one else. I know the pain of being rejected by a loved one. I had a family member, someone who was like a sister to me, completely turn her back on me and reject me because I made a mistake. She was someone I trusted completely and never thought for one second would do that to me. But she did. And ever since then, I've realized there is no one I can count on. God is the only one who promises to never leave me or forsake me. And He is the only one who can keep that promise.
At my church, I have been going through the study called "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore. It's amazing and I would recommend it to every woman, no matter what phase in life you are in or what you are going through. God has used it to reveal many things to me in my heart and life. I know it's no coincidence that the part in the study that I am in this week is about God's unfailing love. It's all about trusting and resting in His love and letting that fill us up because nothing and no one else can. Every single person desires unfailing love-love we can count on that will never stop no matter what happens. Praise the Lord we have that in Him. I'm so grateful that I still have God when I feel like everyone else in my life is not there for me or has rejected me. God loves us and He cares about everything that hurts us. He cries with us when we cry. He listens when we vent. He waits patiently for us while we go to everything and everyone else when we are hurting. He never resents us for it but instead awaits with open arms for us to come to Him. I am deeply grateful that His love never fails.
Please feel free to leave any comments or prayer requests. Or if you just want someone to talk to, email me csbucket@gmail.com. I would love to hear from and learn from anyone who might be reading this.
Isaiah 54:10 NIV "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed, says the Lord who has compassion on you."
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